defying gravities of my life

have you heard the song playing in this blog? the title is defying gravity from the musical wicked and sang by idina menzel.

i chose this song because, at this point of my life, it is very liberating to do the things which i believe are just stuck in my head. i am a dreamer and because of that i have so many wants in life. things are much easier to accomplish if there are avenues which will not hinder reaching them. but life has its ways. it has its own claws that cling to our own choices to make us feel grounded. reasons which sometimes go beyond our own understanding. even i, myself, have the brain which helps to drive my choices to the exact road i have to take even if the outcome doesn't seem acceptable.

sometimes i blame fate for bringing me to where i am not supposed to be. the truth is, my biggest enemy is myself. unconsciously, me.

i don't know how i was able to become the person i am now. not that i regret anything but i used to be a very adventurous being. i take myself one step further to which i think should my standing be. i really pushed myself forward even if it frustrates me. now? i think i took 2 steps backward, always afraid of what people will say and of what the outcome after making a decision. i guess this song is a wake up call.

i choose now to play this song everyday, absorb the message and take the actual step to make things happen. i am okay and i will be okay no matter what life will present to me. i will defy gravity even if the gravity is myself.

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity

I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down:

Unlimited
My future is unlimited
And I've just had a vision
Almost like a prophecy
I know - it sounds truly crazy
And true, the vision's hazy
But I swear, someday there'll be

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately:
"Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!