shift

I guess I will be telling stories starting now... stories about my journey as a person. It was not supposed to be this way when I decided to have this blog. But when I have no more outlet to spare myself from so much pain, I needed to have an avenue to, at least, relieve me from all the stresses... for my own sake.

My boyfriend of 9 years had asked for space. We're already continents away and he asked for space 2 weeks ago. I am really hurting so bad now, especially now, that it's his birthday.

I can't actually organize my thoughts to share how everything begun for both of us. It's all chaotic... full of bitter sweet thoughts.. the tugging of love and pain... of hate and apathy... I wish I'm in a better state to at least give each one of us the happiness that we both deserve.

I once heard that the most tragic thing to happen to a person is to be dead even if alive. Sadly, that's how I feel now.